Take what you can, give nothing back.

I have to go back to the gynocologist tomorrow.
I went a few weeks ago & got some tests done & birth control, etc & they called me like last week or the week before and told me I need to come in on tomorrow's date because I have "irregularities" on my tests.
I'm really scared it's something bad.
I hope it's not an STD or anything, granted I don't think it is because I'm sure I'd know something like that, but I always just think the worst.
I really am terrified.

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ANTM Cycle 10: Fatima.

01.
I have to believe that when things are bad I can change them.
Cinderella Man

02.
You see every drink of liqour you take kills a thousand brain cells.
Not that doesn't matter much 'cos we got billions more. And first the
sadness cells die, so you smile real big. And then the quiet cells go,
so you just say everything real loud for not reason at all. That's okay,
that's okay because the stupid cells go next, so everything you say
is real smart. And finally, come the memory cells. These are tough
sons of bitches to kill.
Bagger Vance

03.
I'm a little self-conscious about my body.
I love to wear hoodies because you can get
cozy and eat some food and your belly doesn't show.
Jared Padalecki <3

04.
And after all that has been said and done
there's still a part of me that just can't let you go.
Chicago

05.
I had to learn the hard way that some people walk into our lives and physically walk out... but they never really leave.
-Arminda Meer

06.
Parents slot into postures in a child's mind, and my mother's posture was a lipsticked woman leaning over, wagging a finger, imploring me to be better than I was. My father's posture was a man in repose, shoulders pressed against a wall, holding a cigarette, watching me sink or swim. In retrospect, I should have made more of the fact that one was leaning toward me and the other was leaning away. But I was a kid, and what do kids know?
- For One More Day by Mitch Albom

[ Music photo shoot.
Type: Rock ]

07.
"The World is divided into armed camps ready to commit genocide just because we can't agree on whose fairy tales to believe.
In the end, Religion will kill us all."
-- Ed Krebs

08.
And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music. -Friedrich Nietzsche

09.
I wonder if the reason I tend to say yes to everything
is because I deeply believe that I can survive anything.
— Scarlett Thomas (The End of Mr. Y)

10.
I'm sick of the ignorance that lack of funding has generated, of the fathers who apporach me at dinner parties with their four-year-old girls clasped to their pant legs and say, "Yeah, but studies say kids can buy drugs more easily than they can buy alcohol." To which I always respond, "I guess that means you keep heroin in your liquor cabinet?"— Koren Zailckas

11.
Reporter: "How do you want to be buried?"
Michael Jackson: "I don't want to die...I want to live forever."

12.
I’m thinking that sometimes you just have to make
the decision to be happy. Just realize that things aren’t
ever what you hoped they’d be. Not ever. For anybody.
+Away From Her

13.
And ever though the moment passed me by
I still can't turn away
'Cause all the dreams you never thought you'd lose
Got tossed along the way
And the letters that you never meant to send
Get lost or thrown away
Name - Goo Goo Dolls

14.
And the scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don't it make you sad to know that life
is more than who we are
Name - Goo Goo Dolls

15.
Even though you're not moving, you feel like you're alive,
because that's how he sees you.
- Toy Story 2

You're already gone.

I don't think I'm supposed to love anyone, and I don't think anyone is supposed to love me.
And because I thought anything more than that, it makes me a fool.

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ANTM Cycle 10: Dominique.

"If you ever decide to go, I want a warning. You know, big flashing red lights and one of those clocks that counts down like a bomb in a movie? And there's a whole bunch of colored wires and I'm not sure which is the right one to cut but I guess the green one and then at the last second, no, the red one, then click, it stops with three-tenths of a second left but then you don't leave. Like that, okay?"
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer

everything we do is a choice. oatmeal or cereal, highways or sidestreets, kiss her or keep her. we make choices and we live with the consequences. if someone gets hurt along the way, we ask for forgiveness. it's the best anyone can do.
++Pushing Daisies

"It was stupid to think that you'd just be waiting."
--"I was waiting. I feel like some part of me will always be waiting for you. Like if I'm old and blue-haired, and I turn the corner in Istanbul and there you are, I won't be surprised. Because... you're with me, you know?"
"I know."
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer

"Listen to me. Listen. I love you. I will always love you. But this is the work that I have to do. Tell Giles...tell Giles I figured it out. And, and I'm okay. And give my love to my friends. You have to take care of them now. You have to take care of each other. You have to be strong. Dawn, the hardest thing in this world is to live in it. Be brave. Live. For me."
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer

"I do remember what I said. The promise. To protect her. If I'd have done that, even if I didn't make it, you wouldn't have had to jump. But I want you to know I did save you. Not when it counted, of course, but after that. Every night after that. I'd see it all again, and do something different. Faster, or more clever, you know? Dozens of times, lots of different ways. Every night, I save you."
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer

"I, Anya, want to marry you, Xander, because I love you and I'll always love you. And before I knew you, I was like a completely different person. Not even a person, really. I had seen what love could do to people, and it was hurt and sadness. Alone was better. And then, suddenly there was you, and you knew me. You saw me, and it was this thing. You make me feel safe and warm. So, I get it now. I finally get love, Xander. I really do."
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer

[ Music photo shoot.
Type: Folk. ]

anything worth having is worth having in excess -SMASHED

This may be the most important moment
of your life. commit to it.
V for Vendetta

I thought it was 'cause i deserved the best and
he's out there. He's just with all the wrong women.
And let me be clear. After centuries of men looking
at my tits instead of my eyes and pinching my ass
instead of shaking my hand, I now have the divine
right to stare at a man's backside with vulgar,
cheap appreciation if I want to!
P.S. I Love You

Desmond: Why do you love me?
Penny: Because you're a good man. In my experience they're pretty hard to come by.
Lost

I took her hand and said baby listen
For every moment you waste,
there's another right behind it to take it's place
Cause life goes on when it ain't so sweet
Don't give up on it
Get back on your feet
You can take another breath you gon'  be okay
Just smile, forget yesterday
Lazy Susan
- Shwayze

Newsflash. Everyone's scared. That's not reason to run away.
The Perfect Man

There's nothing - you know - nothing else like music.
Nothing that touches us on that, uh, deep level.
Music can open up so many emotions that we didn't know
we had. It's the magical thing about musicals, you know,
on the stage or on film or whatever. Love songs. They work
so well because music touches us, emotionally,
where words alone can't.
Johnny Depp

After that, they're just people. Who'll excite you,
disappoint you, scare you a little bit. And boy do
I know how tempting it is to run away when that
happens. It's good for avoiding things. But the
problem is that you end up avoiding yourself.
Avoiding people you love. You end up avoiding
life.
The Perfect Man

.I know I'm doing everything wrong,
but I promise you that I will always be here for you.
No Reservations

Balls of Steel.

 So I filled out an application for Charlotte Russe [a clothing store] a few weeks ago & a couple weeks ago tehy called me wanting to schedule an interview. Well the day they were gonna schedule me for, I was gonna be outta town for the Hollywood Undead concert, so I told them I couldn't make it & they said they'd reschedule me.
They never called me back.
So today I went back to them, told them the story & the girl said that she has my name & number & she'll give me a call for an interview tomorrow.
I AM SO EXCITED!
I hope this works out, I hope I get an interview & I hope I get the job.
Fingers crossed! :)

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ANTM Cycle 10: Claire.

01.
When you want something desperately, you shake with the need for it.
You tell yourself you don't need more than one sip, because it's
just the taste you crave, and once it's on your tongue you will be able 
to make it last a lifetime. You dream of it at night. You see a
thousand mile-high obstacles between where you stand and what you
want, and you convince yourself you have the power to hurdle them.
You tell this even when, leaping the first block, you wind up bruised
and bloodied and flattened.
- Vanishing Acts

02.
"That was beautiful.
She is holding my hand.
No, it wasn't.
If she let go, I would fall apart.
It was. It was beautiful because it
was honest and it was beautiful
because it hurt and it was beautiful
because you didn't have to tell it to me. "
— James Frey (A Million Little Pieces)

03.
Someday, you're gonna wind up all alone,
and you'll have no one to blame but yourself.
The Emperor's New Groove

04.
In the end, Charlie Bucket won a chocolate factory. But Willy Wonka had
something even better, a family. And one thing was absolutely certain - life
had never been sweeter.
Charlie And the Chocolate Factory

05.
When you see something beautiful, something bigger than you,
whether created by nature or man, it changes you, it mellows you,
it changes your attitude toward life.
Will Smith

06.
Kind of makes you wonder ... what would have happened
if Neil Armstrong had gone all the way to the moon and
then never stepped on the surface?
Bubble Boy

[ Music photo shoot.
Type: Country. ]

07.
Parting a soup is not a miracle. It's a magic trick. A single mom who's
working two jobs, and still finds time to take her son to soccer practice,
that's a miracle. A teenager who says 'no' to drugs and 'yes' to an
education, that's a miracle. People want me to do everything for them.
What they don't realize is they have the power. You want to see a miracle,
son? Be the miracle.
Bruce Almighty

08.
You're all geniuses,
and you're all beautiful.
You don't need anyone to tell you who you are.
You are what you are.
Get out there and get peace,
think peace,
and live peace and breathe peace,
and you'll get it as soon as you like.
- John Lennon

09.
"I think when you are young, you are hoping that this person will be the right one, the one you are going to be in love with forever but sometimes you want that so much you create something that isn’t really there." -Johnny Depp

10.
"If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with." -Michael Jackson

11.
"Freedom (n.): To ask nothing. To expect nothing. To depend on nothing." -Ayn Rand

12.
"I like to challenge myself in many ways. I go from being raw and deviant to light and observational. Vulgar and blunt to eloquent and gentle. It doesn’t always work but I fucking commit to it like no one you know." -Dane Cook

13.
"I had never met before a man who understood me so deeply. It was as if we had antenna in common. We had the impression after a while that each of us had missed the other one for years. We had absolutely to meet to have a normal life. It was an absolute need. Being together was a renewal, it was like a breath of fresh air, just like discovering a new land where you immediately feel at home." -Yoko Ono, speaking about her relationship with John five days after their wedding.

14.
"First day of kindergarten you cried 'cause you broke the yellow crayon and you were too afraid to tell anyone. You've come pretty far. Ending the world, not a terrific notion, but the thing is yeah, I love you. I loved crayon-breaky Willow and I love scary veiny Willow. So if I'm goin' out, it's here. You wanna kill the world? You start with me. I've earned that."
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer

15.
Hey, I'm well aware of how lucky I am. Like, lottery lucky. She's like nobody else in the world. When I'm with her, it's like...it's like I'm split in two. Half of me is just on fire, going crazy if I'm not touching her. The other half is so still and peaceful, just perfectly content, just knows: this is the one. But she doesn't love me.
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer

27 rings baby :)

 The New York Yankees are the 2009 World Series Champions.
:)))))
I AM SO UNBELIEVABLY HAPPPYYYY.
My heart bleedssss Yankees blue & white & I crieddd when they won.
They deserve it & Hideki Matsui deserved the MVP.
IF ANY OF YOU FUCKERS WANNA TAKE ME ON & SAY THAT THE YANKEES DIDN'T DESERVE IT, BRING.IT.ON. CAUSE YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHO YOU'RE FUCKING WITH.
Kthanks :)
Yankees all day, everyday, my heart FOREVER.

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ANTM Cycle 10: Atalya.

I promise, that one day, everything's
going to be better for you.
Donnie Darko

And maybe there's no peace in this world, for us or for
anyone else, I don't know. But I do know that, as long
as we live, we must remain true to ourselves.
Spartacus

When you're young everything feels like the end of the world. But it's not; it's just the beginning.
You might have to meet a few more jerks, but one day you're gonna meet a
boy who treats you the way you deserve to be treated.
Like the sun rises and sets with you.
17 Again

A life without Meg, even an immortal life, would be...
empty. I wish to stay on Earth with her, I finally know where I belong.
Hercules

It's man's nature to take what he wants, Dan. That's how we’re born.
3:10 to Yuma

If you don’t have dreams, you don’t have anything.
The Rookie

She's the kinda girl that will call you on your bullshit. She isn't afraid to
dance and she offers to pay. She doesn't decide before a date whether or not
she's gonna kiss you; she's not earnest, yet she's not completely ironic either...
She orders dessert and she can be ready in ten minutes.
Drive Me Crazy 

"There is no pretending," Jace said with absolute clarity.
"I love you, and I will love you until I die,
and if there's a life after that, I'll love you then."
City of Glass ; Cassandra Claire

"In a closed society where everybody's guilty, the only crime is getting caught. In a world of thieves, the only final sin is stupidity."  - Hunter S. Thompson, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas

"Nobody suffers here," Charles intoned. "Nobody is ever unhappy."
"But nobody's ever happy, either," Meg said earnestly. "Maybe if
you aren't unhappy sometimes you don't know how to be happy ... "
A Wrinkle In Time by Madeline L'Engle

Just remember who you are.
The world will try to change you into something else.
Don't let them.
The Warrior Heir by Cinda Wililams Chima

Beth: Yes, Wheeler?
Wheeler: This may be a stupid question. The Get Out of Jail Free Card: Is that real?
Beth: That's not a stupid question.
Danny: It's real in the game of Monopoly.
Wheeler: But Monopoly is based on true events.
Role Models

G'mork: Foolish boy. Don't you know anything about Fantasia? It's the world of human fantasy. Every part, every creature of it, is a piece of the dreams and hopes of mankind. Therefore, it has no boundaries.
Atreyu: But why is Fantasia dying, then?
G'mork: Because people have begun to lose their hopes and forget their dreams. So the Nothing grows stronger.
The Never Ending Story

I really thought love would save us all.
John Lennon

My love was a privilege that you abused. I have withdrawn that privilege.
You are out of my heart. I wish you nothing but unending guilt.
- Divine Secrets Of The Ya-Ya Sisterhood

She'll cut a bitch.

I've been really emotional lately.
I guess just everything is piling up.
I'm worried about school, my weight, my health [since I have to go back to the gyno next week cause my tests came back with something] & my relationship.
Tomorrow I'm gonna go to Winghouse & apply for a job & hopefully that works out.
But at this rate, I doubt it :/

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ANTM Cycle 10 runner up: Anya.
Disclaimer: I HATE that Whitney won this cycle. Anya was totally a better model & person & Whitney is a dumb, fake bitch who only won because she's plus size. Tyra did a shitty job once again.

01.
We lie together. Smiling and holding on to each other and the night and the moment. We stare into each other’s eyes and softly kiss, speaking and saying more with the movement of our lips and the tips of our fingers, more than words will allows us to say. Words can’t say this. The one word love means too little for what it is. It means everything and that is still not enough. It doesn’t communicate even a fraction of the feelings involved. Love. The word is not enough for what it is. Love. Love.
- A Million Little Pieces

02.
Mostly I’m tired of people being ugly to each other. I’m tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world every day. There’s too much of it. It’s like pieces of glass in my head all the time.
-Green Mile

03.
I don’t know why, with such a glorious world as we’ve been provided, with birds, sunshine, beautiful trees and flowers, and the radio, why people don’t get on better than they do.
-The Fortune

04.
"Ideas pull the trigger,
but instinct loads the gun."

05.
No one could expect to live happily ever after.
It just didn't happen.
There are no happy endings.
-"The ABC's of Love" - Sarah Salway

06.
A girl could get addicted to being
treated like she matters.
-"When it Happens"- Susane Colasanti

^^ this wasn't a photo shoot. It was a photo shoot she took w/Nigel after she won a challenge.

07.
Put up your fists if all you want is freedom...
In The Beginning ; K'naan

[ Music photo shoot.
Type: Punk. ]

08.
You love someone, you open yourself up to suffering,
that's the sad truth. Maybe they'll break your heart, maybe
you'll break their heart and never be able to look at yourself
the same way. Those are risks. That's the burden. Like wings,
they have weight, we feel that weight on our backs, but they
are a burden that lifts us. Burdens which allow us to fly.
Bones

09.
You know, just because your life is already pretty far down
one road doesn't mean you can't take a detour. Don't worry if
there's no sign to point the way. Just trust your own compass
and follow the arrow. The point is to take the wheel and drive.
Sometimes the side roads are where you find the best surprises.
Samantha Who?

10.
We need a witness to our lives. There's a billion people on
the planet, what does any one life really mean? But in a marriage,
you're promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad
things, the terrible things, the mundane things, all of it, all of the time,
every day. You're saying, "You're life will not go unnoticed because
I will notice it. Your life will not go unwitnessed because I will be your witness."
Shall We Dance

^^ Also not a photo shoot, just part of a photo challenge.

11.
Everyday I think about what you said to me that day bridge. I tried
to live my life the best that I could. I hope that was enough. I hope that,
at least in your eyes, I've earned what all of you have done for me.
Saving Private Ryan

12.
Patti: I refuse to screw up your love life.
Frances: Don't be ridiculous. You are my love life.
Under the Tuscan Sun

13.
If I learned anything about life, it's this:
always play the hand you're dealt.
X-Men Origins: Wolverine

14.
It was the first time that I saw you. You were reading Less Than Zero,
and you were wearing a Guns 'n' Roses t-shirt. I'd never seen anything
so perfect. I remember thinking that I had to have you or I'd die... and
then you whispered you loved me at the homecoming dance, and I felt
so peaceful... and safe... because I knew that no matter what happened,
from that day on, nothing can ever be that bad... because I had you.
17 Again

15.
The problem is every time I try to get close to somebody, it's like there's
something out there that just says "Oh, Tibby's about to be happy, better get her."
Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2