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Tue, 10 Nov 2009 05:27:07 GMT

I have to go back to the gynocologist tomorrow.
I went a few weeks ago & got some tests done & birth control, etc & they called me like last week or the week before and told me I need to come in on tomorrow's date because I have "irregularities" on my tests.
I'm really scared it's something bad.
I hope it's not an STD or anything, granted I don't think it is because I'm sure I'd know something like that, but I always just think the worst.
I really am terrified.

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ANTM Cycle 10: Fatima.

01.
I have to believe that when things are bad I can change them.
Cinderella Man

02.
You see every drink of liqour you take kills a thousand brain cells.
Not that doesn't matter much 'cos we got billions more. And first the
sadness cells die, so you smile real big. And then the quiet cells go,
so you just say everything real loud for not reason at all. That's okay,
that's okay because the stupid cells go next, so everything you say
is real smart. And finally, come the memory cells. These are tough
sons of bitches to kill.
Bagger Vance

03.
I'm a little self-conscious about my body.
I love to wear hoodies because you can get
cozy and eat some food and your belly doesn't show.
Jared Padalecki <3

04.
And after all that has been said and done
there's still a part of me that just can't let you go.
Chicago

05.
I had to learn the hard way that some people walk into our lives and physically walk out... but they never really leave.
-Arminda Meer

06.
Parents slot into postures in a child's mind, and my mother's posture was a lipsticked woman leaning over, wagging a finger, imploring me to be better than I was. My father's posture was a man in repose, shoulders pressed against a wall, holding a cigarette, watching me sink or swim. In retrospect, I should have made more of the fact that one was leaning toward me and the other was leaning away. But I was a kid, and what do kids know?
- For One More Day by Mitch Albom

[ Music photo shoot.
Type: Rock ]

07.
"The World is divided into armed camps ready to commit genocide just because we can't agree on whose fairy tales to believe.
In the end, Religion will kill us all."
-- Ed Krebs

08.
And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music. -Friedrich Nietzsche

09.
I wonder if the reason I tend to say yes to everything
is because I deeply believe that I can survive anything.
— Scarlett Thomas (The End of Mr. Y)

10.
I'm sick of the ignorance that lack of funding has generated, of the fathers who apporach me at dinner parties with their four-year-old girls clasped to their pant legs and say, "Yeah, but studies say kids can buy drugs more easily than they can buy alcohol." To which I always respond, "I guess that means you keep heroin in your liquor cabinet?"— Koren Zailckas

11.
Reporter: "How do you want to be buried?"
Michael Jackson: "I don't want to die...I want to live forever."

12.
I’m thinking that sometimes you just have to make
the decision to be happy. Just realize that things aren’t
ever what you hoped they’d be. Not ever. For anybody.
+Away From Her

13.
And ever though the moment passed me by
I still can't turn away
'Cause all the dreams you never thought you'd lose
Got tossed along the way
And the letters that you never meant to send
Get lost or thrown away
Name - Goo Goo Dolls

14.
And the scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don't it make you sad to know that life
is more than who we are
Name - Goo Goo Dolls

15.
Even though you're not moving, you feel like you're alive,
because that's how he sees you.
- Toy Story 2

You're already gone.

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 03:52:43 GMT

I don't think I'm supposed to love anyone, and I don't think anyone is supposed to love me.
And because I thought anything more than that, it makes me a fool.

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ANTM Cycle 10: Dominique.

"If you ever decide to go, I want a warning. You know, big flashing red lights and one of those clocks that counts down like a bomb in a movie? And there's a whole bunch of colored wires and I'm not sure which is the right one to cut but I guess the green one and then at the last second, no, the red one, then click, it stops with three-tenths of a second left but then you don't leave. Like that, okay?"
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer

everything we do is a choice. oatmeal or cereal, highways or sidestreets, kiss her or keep her. we make choices and we live with the consequences. if someone gets ~~hurt~~ along the way, we ask for forgiveness. it's the best anyone can do.
++Pushing Daisies

"It was stupid to think that you'd just be waiting."
--"I was waiting. I feel like some part of me will always be waiting for you. Like if I'm old and blue-haired, and I turn the corner in Istanbul and there you are, I won't be surprised. Because... you're with me, you know?"
"I know."
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer

"Listen to me. Listen. I love you. I will always love you. But this is the work that I have to do. Tell Giles...tell Giles I figured it out. And, and I'm okay. And give my love to my friends. You have to take care of them now. You have to take care of each other. You have to be strong. Dawn, the hardest thing in this world is to live in it. Be brave. Live. For me."
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer

"I do remember what I said. The promise. To protect her. If I'd have done that, even if I didn't make it, you wouldn't have had to jump. But I want you to know I did save you. Not when it counted, of course, but after that. Every night after that. I'd see it all again, and do something different. Faster, or more clever, you know? Dozens of times, lots of different ways. Every night, I save you."
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer

"I, Anya, want to marry you, Xander, because I love you and I'll always love you. And before I knew you, I was like a completely different person. Not even a person, really. I had seen what love could do to people, and it was hurt and sadness. Alone was better. And then, suddenly there was you, and you knew me. You saw me, and it was this thing. You make me feel safe and warm. So, I get it now. I finally get love, Xander. I really do."
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer

[ Music photo shoot.
Type: Folk. ]

anything worth having is worth having in excess -SMASHED

This may be the most important moment
of your life. commit to it.
V for Vendetta

I thought it was 'cause i deserved the best and
he's out there. He's just with all the wrong women.
And let me be clear. After centuries of men looking
at my tits instead of my eyes and pinching my ass
instead of shaking my hand, I now have the divine
right to stare at a man's backside with vulgar,
cheap appreciation if I want to!
P.S. I Love You

Desmond: Why do you love me?
Penny: Because you're a good man. In my experience they're pretty hard to come by.
Lost

I took her hand and said baby listen
For every moment you waste,
there's another right behind it to take it's place
Cause life goes on when it ain't so sweet
Don't give up on it
Get back on your feet
You can take another breath you gon' be okay
Just smile, forget yesterday
Lazy Susan
- Shwayze

Newsflash. Everyone's scared. That's not reason to run away.
The Perfect Man

There's nothing - you know - nothing else like music.
Nothing that touches us on that, uh, deep level.
Music can open up so many emotions that we didn't know
we had. It's the magical thing about musicals, you know,
on the stage or on film or whatever. Love songs. They work
so well because music touches us, emotionally,
where words alone can't.
Johnny Depp

After that, they're just people. Who'll excite you,
disappoint you, scare you a little bit. And boy do
I know how tempting it is to run away when that
happens. It's good for avoiding things. But the
problem is that you end up avoiding yourself.
Avoiding people you love. You end up avoiding
life.
The Perfect Man

.I know I'm doing everything wrong,
but I promise you that I will always be here for you.
No Reservations

Balls of Steel.

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 05:11:26 GMT

So I filled out an application for Charlotte Russe [a clothing store] a few weeks ago & a couple weeks ago tehy called me wanting to schedule an interview. Well the day they were gonna schedule me for, I was gonna be outta town for the Hollywood Undead concert, so I told them I couldn't make it & they said they'd reschedule me.
They never called me back.
So today I went back to them, told them the story & the girl said that she has my name & number & she'll give me a call for an interview tomorrow.
I AM SO EXCITED!
I hope this works out, I hope I get an interview & I hope I get the job.
Fingers crossed! :)

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ANTM Cycle 10: Claire.

01.
When you want something desperately, you shake with the need for it.
You tell yourself you don't need more than one sip, because it's
just the taste you crave, and once it's on your tongue you will be able
to make it last a lifetime. You dream of it at night. You see a
thousand mile-high obstacles between where you stand and what you
want, and you convince yourself you have the power to hurdle them.
You tell this even when, leaping the first block, you wind up bruised
and bloodied and flattened.
- Vanishing Acts

02.
"That was beautiful.
She is holding my hand.
No, it wasn't.
If she let go, I would fall apart.
It was. It was beautiful because it
was honest and it was beautiful
because it hurt and it was beautiful
because you didn't have to tell it to me. "
— James Frey (A Million Little Pieces)

03.
Someday, you're gonna wind up all alone,
and you'll have no one to blame but yourself.
The Emperor's New Groove

04.
In the end, Charlie Bucket won a chocolate factory. But Willy Wonka had
something even better, a family. And one thing was absolutely certain - life
had never been sweeter.
Charlie And the Chocolate Factory

05.
When you see something beautiful, something bigger than you,
whether created by nature or man, it changes you, it mellows you,
it changes your attitude toward life.
Will Smith

06.
Kind of makes you wonder ... what would have happened
if Neil Armstrong had gone all the way to the moon and
then never stepped on the surface?
Bubble Boy

[ Music photo shoot.
Type: Country. ]

07.
Parting a soup is not a miracle. It's a magic trick. A single mom who's
working two jobs, and still finds time to take her son to soccer practice,
that's a miracle. A teenager who says 'no' to drugs and 'yes' to an
education, that's a miracle. People want me to do everything for them.
What they don't realize is they have the power. You want to see a miracle,
son? Be the miracle.
Bruce Almighty

08.
You're all geniuses,
and you're all beautiful.
You don't need anyone to tell you who you are.
You are what you are.
Get out there and get peace,
think peace,
and live peace and breathe peace,
and you'll get it as soon as you like.
- John Lennon

09.
"I think when you are young, you are hoping that this person will be the right one, the one you are going to be in love with forever but sometimes you want that so much you create something that isn’t really there." -Johnny Depp

10.
"If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with." -Michael Jackson

11.
"Freedom (n.): To ask nothing. To expect nothing. To depend on nothing." -Ayn Rand

12.
"I like to challenge myself in many ways. I go from being raw and deviant to light and observational. Vulgar and blunt to eloquent and gentle. It doesn’t always work but I fucking commit to it like no one you know." -Dane Cook

13.
"I had never met before a man who understood me so deeply. It was as if we had antenna in common. We had the impression after a while that each of us had missed the other one for years. We had absolutely to meet to have a normal life. It was an absolute need. Being together was a renewal, it was like a breath of fresh air, just like discovering a new land where you immediately feel at home." -Yoko Ono, speaking about her relationship with John five days after their wedding.

14.
"First day of kindergarten you cried 'cause you broke the yellow crayon and you were too afraid to tell anyone. You've come pretty far. Ending the world, not a terrific notion, but the thing is yeah, I love you. I loved crayon-breaky Willow and I love scary veiny Willow. So if I'm goin' out, it's here. You wanna kill the world? You start with me. I've earned that."
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer

15.
Hey, I'm well aware of how lucky I am. Like, lottery lucky. She's like nobody else in the world. When I'm with her, it's like...it's like I'm split in two. Half of me is just on fire, going crazy if I'm not touching her. The other half is so still and peaceful, just perfectly content, just knows: this is the one. But she doesn't love me.
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer

27 rings baby :)

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 06:17:58 GMT

The New York Yankees are the 2009 World Series Champions.
:)))))
I AM SO UNBELIEVABLY HAPPPYYYY.
My heart bleedssss Yankees blue & white & I crieddd when they won.
They deserve it & Hideki Matsui deserved the MVP.
IF ANY OF YOU FUCKERS WANNA TAKE ME ON & SAY THAT THE YANKEES DIDN'T DESERVE IT, BRING.IT.ON. CAUSE YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHO YOU'RE FUCKING WITH.
Kthanks :)
Yankees all day, everyday, my heart FOREVER.

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ANTM Cycle 10: Atalya.

I promise, that one day, everything's
going to be better for you.
Donnie Darko

And maybe there's no peace in this world, for us or for
anyone else, I don't know. But I do know that, as long
as we live, we must remain true to ourselves.
Spartacus

When you're young everything feels like the end of the world. But it's not; it's just the beginning.
You might have to meet a few more jerks, but one day you're gonna meet a
boy who treats you the way you deserve to be treated.
Like the sun rises and sets with you.
17 Again

A life without Meg, even an immortal life, would be...
empty. I wish to stay on Earth with her, I finally know where I belong.
Hercules

It's man's nature to take what he wants, Dan. That's how we’re born.
3:10 to Yuma

If you don’t have dreams, you don’t have anything.
The Rookie

She's the kinda girl that will call you on your bullshit. She isn't afraid to
dance and she offers to pay. She doesn't decide before a date whether or not
she's gonna kiss you; she's not earnest, yet she's not completely ironic either...
She orders dessert and she can be ready in ten minutes.
Drive Me Crazy

"There is no pretending," Jace said with absolute clarity.
"I love you, and I will love you until I die,
and if there's a life after that, I'll love you then."
City of Glass ; Cassandra Claire

"In a closed society where everybody's guilty, the only crime is getting caught. In a world of thieves, the only final sin is stupidity." - Hunter S. Thompson, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas

"Nobody suffers here," Charles intoned. "Nobody is ever unhappy."
"But nobody's ever happy, either," Meg said earnestly. "Maybe if
you aren't unhappy sometimes you don't know how to be happy ... "
A Wrinkle In Time by Madeline L'Engle

Just remember who you are.
The world will try to change you into something else.
Don't let them.
The Warrior Heir by Cinda Wililams Chima

Beth: Yes, Wheeler?
Wheeler: This may be a stupid question. The Get Out of Jail Free Card: Is that real?
Beth: That's not a stupid question.
Danny: It's real in the game of Monopoly.
Wheeler: But Monopoly is based on true events.
Role Models

G'mork: Foolish boy. Don't you know anything about Fantasia? It's the world of human fantasy. Every part, every creature of it, is a piece of the dreams and hopes of mankind. Therefore, it has no boundaries.
Atreyu: But why is Fantasia dying, then?
G'mork: Because people have begun to lose their hopes and forget their dreams. So the Nothing grows stronger.
The Never Ending Story

I really thought love would save us all.
John Lennon

My love was a privilege that you abused. I have withdrawn that privilege.
You are out of my heart. I wish you nothing but unending guilt.
- Divine Secrets Of The Ya-Ya Sisterhood

She'll cut a bitch.

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 05:30:48 GMT

I've been really emotional lately.
I guess just everything is piling up.
I'm worried about school, my weight, my health [since I have to go back to the gyno next week cause my tests came back with something] & my relationship.
Tomorrow I'm gonna go to Winghouse & apply for a job & hopefully that works out.
But at this rate, I doubt it :/

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ANTM Cycle 10 runner up: Anya.
Disclaimer: I HATE that Whitney won this cycle. Anya was totally a better model & person & Whitney is a dumb, fake bitch who only won because she's plus size. Tyra did a shitty job once again.

01.
We lie together. Smiling and holding on to each other and the night and the moment. We stare into each other’s eyes and softly kiss, speaking and saying more with the movement of our lips and the tips of our fingers, more than words will allows us to say. Words can’t say this. The one word love means too little for what it is. It means everything and that is still not enough. It doesn’t communicate even a fraction of the feelings involved. Love. The word is not enough for what it is. Love. Love.
- A Million Little Pieces

02.
Mostly I’m tired of people being ugly to each other. I’m tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world every day. There’s too much of it. It’s like pieces of glass in my head all the time.
-Green Mile

03.
I don’t know why, with such a glorious world as we’ve been provided, with birds, sunshine, beautiful trees and flowers, and the radio, why people don’t get on better than they do.
-The Fortune

04.
"Ideas pull the trigger,
but instinct loads the gun."

05.
No one could expect to live happily ever after.
It just didn't happen.
There are no happy endings.
-"The ABC's of Love" - Sarah Salway

06.
A girl could get addicted to being
treated like she matters.
-"When it Happens"- Susane Colasanti

^^ this wasn't a photo shoot. It was a photo shoot she took w/Nigel after she won a challenge.

07.
Put up your fists if all you want is freedom...
In The Beginning ; K'naan

[ Music photo shoot.
Type: Punk. ]

08.
You love someone, you open yourself up to suffering,
that's the sad truth. Maybe they'll break your heart, maybe
you'll break their heart and never be able to look at yourself
the same way. Those are risks. That's the burden. Like wings,
they have weight, we feel that weight on our backs, but they
are a burden that lifts us. Burdens which allow us to fly.
Bones

09.
You know, just because your life is already pretty far down
one road doesn't mean you can't take a detour. Don't worry if
there's no sign to point the way. Just trust your own compass
and follow the arrow. The point is to take the wheel and drive.
Sometimes the side roads are where you find the best surprises.
Samantha Who?

10.
We need a witness to our lives. There's a billion people on
the planet, what does any one life really mean? But in a marriage,
you're promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad
things, the terrible things, the mundane things, all of it, all of the time,
every day. You're saying, "You're life will not go unnoticed because
I will notice it. Your life will not go unwitnessed because I will be your witness."
Shall We Dance

^^ Also not a photo shoot, just part of a photo challenge.

11.
Everyday I think about what you said to me that day bridge. I tried
to live my life the best that I could. I hope that was enough. I hope that,
at least in your eyes, I've earned what all of you have done for me.
Saving Private Ryan

12.
Patti: I refuse to screw up your love life.
Frances: Don't be ridiculous. You are my love life.
Under the Tuscan Sun

13.
If I learned anything about life, it's this:
always play the hand you're dealt.
X-Men Origins: Wolverine

14.
It was the first time that I saw you. You were reading Less Than Zero,
and you were wearing a Guns 'n' Roses t-shirt. I'd never seen anything
so perfect. I remember thinking that I had to have you or I'd die... and
then you whispered you loved me at the homecoming dance, and I felt
so peaceful... and safe... because I knew that no matter what happened,
from that day on, nothing can ever be that bad... because I had you.
17 Again

15.
The problem is every time I try to get close to somebody, it's like there's
something out there that just says "Oh, Tibby's about to be happy, better get her."
Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2

That's my heart right there.

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 04:27:21 GMT

Halloween was pretty fun.
I just have a lot on my mind.

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ANTM Cycle 10: Amis.

These are all Michael Jackson quotes.

I'm Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .
As I, Turn Up The Collar On My
Favourite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street,
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change

I've Been A Victim Of A Selfish
Kind Of Love
It's Time That I Realize
That There Are Some With No
Home, Not A Nickel To Loan
Could It Be Really Me,
Pretending That They're Not
Alone?

She's Saying That's Ok
Hey Baby Do What You Please
I Have The Stuff That You Want
I Am The Thing That You Need
She Looked Me Deep In The Eyes
She's Touchin' Me So To Start
She Says There's No Turnin' Back
She Trapped Me In Her Heart

Nation To Nation
All The World
Must Come Together
Face The Problems
That We See
Then Maybe Somehow We Can Work It Out
I Asked My Neighbor
For A Favor
She Said Later
What Has Come Of
All The People
Have We Lost Love
Of What It's About

I Have To Find My Peace Cuz
No One Seems To Let Me Be
False Prophets Cry Of Doom
What Are The Possibilities
I Told My Brother
There'll Be Problems,
Times And Tears For Fears,
We Must Live Each Day
Like It's The Last

They Say I'm Different
They Don't Understand
But There's A Bigger Problem
That's Much More In Demand
You Got World Hunger
Not Enough To Eat
So There's Really No Time
To Be Trippin' On Me

All these last pictures are of Britney Spears.

08.
You Got School Teachers
Who Don't Wanna Teach
You Got Grown People
Who Can't Write Or Read
You Got Strange Diseases
Ah But There's No Cure
You Got Many Doctors
That Aren't So Sure
So Tell Me
Why You Wanna Trip On Me

We've Got More Problems
Than We'll Ever Need
You Got Gang Violence
And Bloodshed On The Street
You Got Homeless People
With No Food To Eat
With No Clothes On Their Back
And No Shoes For Their Feet

We've Got Drug Addiction
In The Minds Of The Weak
We've Got So Much Corruption
Police Brutality
We've Got Streetwalkers
Walkin' Into Darkness
Tell Me
What Are We Doin'
To Try To Stop This

There's A Place In
Your Heart
And I Know That It Is Love
And This Place Could
Be Much
Brighter Than Tomorrow
And If You Really Try
You'll Find There's No Need
To Cry
In This Place You'll Feel
There's No Hurt Or Sorrow
There Are Ways
To Get There
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Little Space
Make A Better Place

Protection
For Gangs, Clubs
And Nations
Causing Grief In
Human Relations
It's A Turf War
On A Global Scale
I'd Rather Hear Both Sides
Of The Tale
See, It's Not About Races
Just Places
Faces
Where Your Blood
Comes From
Is Where Your Space Is
I've Seen The Bright
Get Duller
I'm Not Going To Spend
My Life Being A Color

You Always Knew Just How To Make Me Cry
And Never Did I Ask You Questions Why
It Seems You Get Your Kicks From Hurting Me
Don't Try To Understand Me
Because Your Words Just Aren't Enough

Tired of injustice
Tired of the schemes
The lies are disgusting
So what does it mean
Kicking me down
I got to get up
As jacked as it sounds
The whole system sucks

Maybe it makes sense now. Maybe somewhere in all of this there’s a reason. Maybe somewhere in all of this there’s a why. Maybe somewhere there’s that thing that lets you tie it all up with a neat bow and bury it in the backyard. But nothing, not getting angry, not prayers, and not tears, nothing can make something that happened unhappen.
-United States of Leland

Bolding Surveys.
Can you relate to these lyrics?
Bold the ones you can relate to.

"I never thought that I could walk away, every second I'm regretting that I didn't stay."
"Am I crazy or falling in love, is it really just another crush?"
"If you lie you don't deserve to have friends."
"There's no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard, no song that I could sing but I can try for your heart."
"Everyday feels like a monday, there is no escaping from the heartache."
"Meant to be together, meant for no one but each other, you love me I love you harder."
"'Cause everything you do and words you say, you know that it all takes my breath away, and now I'm left with nothing."
"Do you remember how we started? Fairytale got twisted and decayed. The innocence has long been broken. How did we get this way?"
"I love it to see everybody in short skirts, shorts and shades, I like it in the city when two worlds collide."
"'Cause you're everywhere to me, and when I close my eyes it's you I see."
"When all my faith has gone you bring it back to me."
"I have run, I have crawled, I have scaled these city walls, only to be with you, but I still haven't found what I'm looking for."
"And he doesn't know just how far I would go, just to kiss him, he doesn't know how I pine."
"You came like a thief in the night and stole my heart."
"You're the direction I follow to get home, and when I feel like I can't go on, you tell me to go."
"I want to scream, until no sound comes out and you learn your lesson."
"I may be ugly, but they sure love to stare."
"Who said, who said I can't be superman?"
"'Cause it's another night, another dream wasted on you."
"My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me, so won't you kill me, so I die happy?"
"Waiting on a second hand pick me up."
"I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you, I need you like a heart needs a beat, that's nothing new."
"This vacations useless, these white pills are con."
"I want to run, but only far enough to make you miss me."
"I've been around the world, I've seen so many places, living the life, I've worked so hard to make it, trading the world for money stars and power, living my life at one hundred miles an hour."
"I've given a lot of thought to the nights we used to have, the days have come and gone, our lives went by so fast."
"Everybody knows the end, the curtain hits the floor, everybody knows the end, don't wanna get there wishing that you'd given more."
"I will never be perfect, because I'll never be you."
"Quitting is out of the question, when it gets tough gotta fight some more."
"Dreaming 'bout the day when you wake up and find that what you're looking for has been here the whole time."

went out of your way just to see someone
started to laugh but played it off as a cough
pretended to text in an awkward situation
been inside of a police vehicle
worked where there were always lots of children around
liked music by someone younger than you
liked a song just because of the lyrics
kept track of your calories
scratched yourself in public
shit in a public bathroom
told someone you would always love them
had way too much time on your hands
skipped a sports practice just cause you were tired
had a time in your life where you felt invincible
spent more than $300 just at one clothing store
spent more than $500 at one clothing store
cried yourself to sleep
prayed while laying in bed, crying, in the dark
sat outside and just admired how beautiful it was
swam in a lake
got drunk by a lake
lied to a parent about where you were
got caught shoplifting
got annoyed by someone just because of how they presented themselves
fell asleep while on the computer
owned more than 20 pairs of jeans
owned more than 50 pairs of jeans
admired someone from afar
got caught staring at someone you thought was really cute
rode on the zipper at a carnival
weren't able to fall asleep on christmas eve
or easter eve
had senioritis before you were a senior
laid in bed with someone you loved
kept a collection of quotes
created something beautiful
laughed your ass off through an entire movie
bought snacks and popcorn at the movie theater
played arcade games
pissed someone off intentionally
made someone's day
applied for a job and didn't get accepted
got too worried over something small
read a story to a child
played "kitchen" and "house" when you were younger
liked decorating things
cursed at a teacher
wished you were more popular
craved attention
been told you had an amazing smile
caused a car accident
had road rage
experienced deja vu
watched food network allll day
felt like crying because someone was such an unbelievably good person
wished there were more people like that
got angry just because something was so fucking unfair
flashed strangers
spent a friday or saturday night on xanga
told yourself you would do something, and then never did
~~gave up on some people~~ < -- I don't give up, I let go.
got excited over something tiny that meant something big
wrote an essay under 10 minutes
finished a math test in less than 20 minutes
ignored someone purposely
dialed 911
been so embarrassed you wanted to die
watched the sunrise
~~been to florida and never wanted to leave~~ <-- I live there.
been to massachusetts
questioned life
been told I have a very big heart
giggled for a long period of time
been inspired by something I've read
been depressed
been awake for more than 48 hours
had to pee so bad you couldn't move
ate food before paying for it
ate food in a grocery store and ended up never paying for it
made homemade donuts
homemade brownies
homemade cookies
homemade cake
closed your eyes and thought of only one person
been in love longer than 3 years
taken a biology class
taken algebra and algebra 2
been harassed
felt like you had no chance with someone
watched the clock cause you were so bored
came to school high
had sex in a car
smiled at a stranger
rode a on shopping cart
Art interests me, but I'm not a very good artist
I'm not very patient
I'm really excited for Thanksgiving...
...not just for the food, but because I need a break from all the work I have to do
I was in a strange mood today
Sometimes my joints bother me...it makes me feel like an old lady
I'm not sure if I believe in ghosts or not
I love Tim Burton's movies
I have sick and sarcastic sense of humor
The new Sharpie pens are really cool
I wish I could manage my stress better
I can't stand Red Bull
I still use floppy disks to save my school work
I hate it when I can hear people chewing
My nose is always sniffly when the weather is cold
Gas prices are looking okay right about now
I love seeing new places...
...I just hate the time it takes to get there.
I should really be studying right now
Or doing homework
Or just doing something more productive
I think Saw V was a waste of my money
I want more tattoos
I'm very stubborn
I want a new camera
I need a hair cut
I don't like buying things for myself
When I'm stressed out, I break out and it sucks.
I respect other people's opinions, but I will most likely not change mine and will argue my beliefs until the day I die
There are crazy evangelical Christians who preach everything in the Bible at school...
...they're really really annoying.
When I'm deep in thought, I stare...sometimes at people I don't even know.
It would probably be fun to drive around in those construction trucks like the thing with the big shovel and the bulldozer
I'm very particular about my music, but I do try to listen to new things to see if I'll like it
I like giving back to the community
My car means a lot to me, not just for its material value
I sometimes feel guilty after downloading music illegally
I've never been arrested
I have quite the temper
I hate how I can't use a calculator in my Calc class...wtf??
I'm afraid of change
I don't like hospitals, but I want to work in one some day
I love motorcycles even though I've never ridden one
I am dependent on some sort of drug to live or feel well enough to get stuff done
I've had a colonoscopy...
...and the anesthesia they gave me was heavenly
I can drink legally, but I don't go out much for drinking
I wonder what it would be like to live in a different era
I also wonder what I'll look like when I'm old
I can crack a lot of parts of my body, including my jaw
I love fireworks
I hate lying and I suck at it
I need new jeans, but I hate shopping for them
I hate writing papers with single-spacing
My family uses space heaters to try and save money on the overall heating bill
Fire can be cool to look at
There are some pretty stupid people in this world
It disturbs me that some people driving on the road right now, probably shouldn't be because of their age.
I hate when the person in front of me is driving 5 mph below the speed limit
I'm very flirtatious
I'm very selective about whom I hug
I want to learn how to speak Greek
I can read four different alphabets, but that doesn't mean I know what I'm saying when I'm reading them.
I need something to eat
The idea of the future and the unknown sometimes freaks me out

have you ever...?
slept all night with someone of the same sex (nothing sexual)?
slept all night with someone of the opposite sex (nothing sexual)?
stayed up all night?
slept for twelve or more hours?
partied all night?
got drunk at a party?
got drunk while your parents were around?
skipped school/classes?
kissed more than one person in a day?
learned a different language (or most of it)?
had a job?
used someone?
got a stranger to take your picture?
got a stranger to take your picture and then had the stranger run off with your camera?
had a stalker?
stalked someone?
copied/made your own cd?
danced in public?
disturbed the peace?
talked loudly in a movie theater?
been cheated on?
cheated on someone?
made out in a car?
had sex in a car?
hung out with one of your teachers outside of school?
said something racist?
made out in a movie theatre?
made out somewhere else in public?
kissed in front of your parents?
cut your hair really short?
let your hair grow out really long?
threw your cell phone or something else expensive and broke it?
lied to your parents?
snuck out of the house?
snuck someone in the house?
ran away?
pretended to like something that you didn't like so people would like/accept you?
kissed in the rain?
flew in an airplane?
wrecked a car?
wrecked a car while drunk?
been in a car accident while you weren't driving?
thrown a party?
thrown a party that was out of control?
lost your virginity?
had sex more than once in a day?
got drunk?
had your thongs showing?
been diagnosed with some mental disorder? <- I haven't been diagnosed yet.
lost a lot of weight in a short amount of time?
gained a lot of weight in a short amount of time?
went to a school dance?
moved to a different state than the one you were born in?
been out of the country?
got straight a's?
went to summer school?
surfed?
dyed your hair a natural color?
dyed your hair an unnatural color?
mowed the lawn?
witnessed a crime?
let someone cry on your shoulder?
cried yourself to sleep?
got in trouble with the cops?
been arrested?
sat on a roof?
fell off a roof?
stolen your friend's boyfriend?
gone out with someone you knew your friend liked?
been in love with someone from a cartoon/anime?
followed someone in a store?
had a conversation with an aim robot?
wore all black?
spied on your neighbours?
smoked a cigarette?
smoked something else?
taken prescription medicines that weren't yours?
been to a therapist?
been to rehab?
wore black nail polish?
blacked out?
fainted?
stole something worth little money?
stole something worth at least $40?
stole something worth at least $100?
broke a mirror?
broke a mirror and had bad luck?
had surgery?
gone to court?
got married?
got pretend married when you were younger?
lied about your age?
stayed online for 5+ hours straight?
stripped for an audience?
wore toe socks?
wore knee high socks?
tried to sell one of your family members?
ate asparagus?
danced on a pole?
hugged a street sign?
danced on a street sign?
hugged a pole?
finished a book in one day?
finished a book in two days?
got in trouble at school?
fallen up the stairs?
slapped someone across the face

001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more TV than I used to.
003. I love olives.
004. I love sleeping.
005. I own lots of books.
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. I love to play video games.
008. I've watched porn movies.
010. I have been in a threesome.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. I believe honesty is the best policy.
013. I have acne free skin.
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
015. I curse frequently.
016. I've changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby.
018. I've been told I have a nice butt.
019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. I'm really, really smart.
021. I've never broken anyone else's bones.
022. I have a secret that I am ~~ashamed~~ not proud enough to reveal.
023. I love rain.
024. I'm paranoid at times.
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. I need money right now.
027. I love sushi.
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. I have fresh breath in the morning.
030. I have semi-long hair.
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
034. I shave my legs.
035. I have a twin.
037. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
038. I like the way that I look.
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
041. I am usually pessimistic.
042. I have mood swings.
043. I think prostitution should be legalized.
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
045. I have cheated on a significant other.
046. I have a hidden talent.
047. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
048. I think that I'm popular.
049. I am currently single.
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
051. I enjoy talking on the phone.
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
053. I love to shop.
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto.
056. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. I'm obsessed with my blog!
058. I don't hate anyone.
059. I'm a pretty good dancer.
060. I'm a horrible dancer.
061. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a cell phone.
063. I watch MuchMusic on a daily basis.
064. I cry myself to sleep.
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. I have never been in a real relationship before.
068. I've rejected someone before.
069. I currently have a crush on someone.
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future.
072. I have changed a diaper before.
073. I've had the cops called on me before.
074. I bite my nails.
075. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
076. I'm not allergic to anything deadly.
077. I have a lot to learn.
078. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
079. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
080. I am very shy around the opposite sex.
081. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. I have tried alcohol before.
084. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
085. I own the "SOUTH PARK" movie.
087. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
088. I enjoy country music.
089. I love my best friend(s).
090. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
091. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
092. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
093. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
094. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
095. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
096. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
097. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
098. I have dated a close friend's ex.
099. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving.
101. I've had a crush on someone I've never met.
102. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I strongly dislike math.
105. I'm procrastinating on something right now.
106. I own and use a library card.
107. I fall in "lust" more than in "love".
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. I'm obsessed with the tv show "Lost."
111. I am resentful that I have to grow up.
112. I am an entirely different person around different people.
113. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled and meant it more often.
114. I think ramen is the best kind of food in the whole world.
115. I am suffering of a broken heart.
116. I am a nerd.
117. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I always seem to be lonely.
118. I am left handed and proud of it.
119. I don't change who I am for someone else.
120. My heart resides below my feet.
121. I am a Senior in High School.
122. I enjoy smoothies.
123. I have gastritis.
124. I have nothing better to do with my time.
125. I am listening to Radiohead right now.
126. Most people call me by my middle name.
127. I once stole a music stand.
128. Pi confuses me.
129. I love NASCAR!
130. I own over 200 CDs.
131. I work 7 days a week.
132. I have mono.
132. I don't have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
133. People tell me I have a horrible sense of humor.
134. I'm only wearing underwear.
135. I had more than one Thanksgiving dinner this year.
136. I've driven to a different state to see a band I liked.
137. I am the most over analytical person I know.
138. I believe in wasting time.
139. I don't listen to too much music.
140. I have a shoe fetish.
141. My favorite holiday isn't Christmas.
142. I prefer weeks off of work instead of days here and there.
143. I love sex.
144. I wanna go home.
145. I don’t know what I would do without my friends.
146. Christmas threw up in my dorm room and I love it.
147. Friends is (one of) my favorite TV show.
148. I'm hungry.
149. I'm still angry about the Nip/Tuck season 2 finale cliffhanger.
150. I'm a Potterhead and proud of it!
151. I noticed there are several numbers missing from this list, making this very much not the 151st entry.
152. I lied about one of the items on this list.
153. My siblings are my best friends.
154. I believe cheese should be its own food group it is soooo good!
155. I have a problem expressing things.
156. I have lost a parent.
157. I am the most deprived person I know on the face of the planet.
158. I have at least one test tomorrow that I am not prepared for yet.
159. I love Slim Jims! even if they are really bad for you.
160. I am sick and tired of school so I am not going.
161. I love Sundance.
162. I do not watch television.
163. I love Starbucks coffee drinks.
164. I am living at least one lie right now.
165. I love wearing skirts, even if its winter.
166. I'm a techie.
167. I am writing this far, far too late/early.
168. I'm a little crazy.
169. I like the smell of white tic tacs.
170. I know at least one person in a "life or death" crisis at this moment.
171. I don't associate myself with any political parties.
172. I always know all the gossip at my school/workplace/whatever, and nobody ever suspects it.
173. I have thought about suicide.
174. I have no idea what I am going to write for my question.
175. I can be selfish.
176. I'm so emo at times.
177. I can solve a 3x3 rubik's cube.
178. I think the human race is evil & should be demolished.
179. I cheated on a test before.
180. I am a member of AnimeMusicVideos.org
181. I'm sick of drama
182. I need a job

I never… Survey.

I never gave a blowjob.
I never had protected sex.
I never fingered another person.
I never had anal sex.
I never went to Disney World.
I never been out of my home country.
I never kissed a stranger on the lips.
I never read a book over eight hundred pages.
I never painted a picture on a canvas.
I never sang in front of a large crowd by myself.
I never ate out a girl.
I never have seen another girl completely naked
I never had braces.
I never learned German.
I never watched legit porn.
I never masturbated in front of someone.
I never had a fight with my dad.
I never updated my myspace status through my phone.
I never had my myspace deleted for being underaged.
I never used Nair.
I never had cut my wrists.
I never wanted plastic surgery.
I never did another sexual position besides missionary.
I never ate goat meat.
I never ate horse meat.
I never drank goat's milk.
I never drank organic regular milk.
I never had a girlfriend/boyfriend.
I never kissed another girl.
I never learned Chinese.
I never blew up a balloon.
I never changed a baby's diaper.
I never lost my phone for good.
I never lost a friend through death.
I never met one of my grandparents.
I never met someone with my exact name.
I never dated someone with red hair.
I never put on eyeliner for myself.
I never took a dance class.
I never used a tampon larger than regular.
I never tried weed.
I never tried most drugs.
I never cooked dinner for my family.
I never had anything besides my ears pierced.
I never had a tattoo.
I never went to the beach to tan.
I never kissed anyone on the lips that was younger than me.
I never dumped someone.
I never stepped in something nasty barefooted.
I never cheated on someone.

Happy happy Halloweennn.

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 04:46:41 GMT

Happy Halloween :)
This'll be the only entry I'm posting today so enjoy!
I hope everyone has a great nighttt.

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ANTM Cycle 10: Allison.

01.
She looked at me and this is what she said:
"Oh, there ain't no rest for the wicked, money don't grow on trees.
I got bills to pay, I got mouths to feed, there ain't nothing
in this world for free. I know I can't slow down, I can't hold back,
though you know, I wish I could. No there ain't no rest
for the wicked, until we close our eyes for good".

02.
When we're alone you adore me.
When we're both dressed you ignore me.

03.
There's an airplane in the sky with a banner right behind,
"Loneliness is just a crime, look eachother in the eye and say hello."

04.
They say that we ain't got the style, we ain't got the class,
we ain't got the tunes that's gunna put us on the map.
And I'm a phoney in disguise, trying to make the radio,
I'm an anti social anarchist who sounds like "so and so".
They say I'm just a stupid kid, another crazy radical.
Rock and roll is dead, I probably should've stayed in school.
Another Generation X who somehow slipped up through the crack.
Oh they'd love to see me fall, but I'm already on my back.

05.
The best possible way, you have absolutely wrecked me, because you see, I fell in love with you knowing that there was never any possibility of being with you.
-Dawson's Creek

06.
"I would rather grow up wrong than be right in someone else's eyes."
- Steven Tyler

07.
When a good person dies, there should be an impact on the world. Somebody should notice. Somebody should be upset.
( House )

All the rest of these quote are from Michael Jackson in honor of This Is It <3

08.
I'm never pleased with anything, I'm a perfectionist, it's part of who I am.
-Michael Jackson

09.
They Told Him Don't You Ever Come Around Here
Don't Wanna See Your Face, You Better Disappear
The Fire's In Their Eyes And Their Words Are Really Clear
So Beat It, Just Beat It

10.
You Better Run, You Better Do What You Can
Don't Wanna See No Blood, Don't Be A Macho Man
You Wanna Be Tough, Better Do What You Can
So Beat It, But You Wanna Be Bad

11.
They're Out To Get You, Better Leave While You Can
Don't Wanna Be A Boy, You Wanna Be A Man
You Wanna Stay Alive, Better Do What You Can

12.
You Have To Show Them That You're Really Not Scared
You're Playin' With Your Life, This Ain't No Truth Or Dare
They'll Kick You, Then They Beat You,
Then They'll Tell You It's Fair

13.
People Always Told Me Be Careful Of What You Do
And Don't Go Around Breaking Young Girls' Hearts
And Mother Always Told Me Be Careful Of Who You Love
And Be Careful Of What You Do 'Cause The Lie Becomes The Truth

14.
We're Takin' Over
We Have The Truth
This Is The Mission
To See It Through
Don't Point Your Finger
Not Dangerous
This Is Our Planet
You're One Of Us

15.
A Rather Nation
Fulfill The Truth
The Final Message
We're Bring To You
There Is No Danger
Fulfill The Truth
So Come Together
We're Mean Is You

I'm not here for your entertainment.

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 04:09:50 GMT

I can't wait for Halloweeeennnn.
:) It's gonna be so fun & I'm gonna get superrr drunk.
I'mma vamp up the Wednesday Addams look, since I'm NOT pale whatsoever lmao.
I'mma do the eyes real creepy and dark and maybe some dark lipstick, depending since idt Nate would like kissing me all night with it lmao.

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ANTM Cycle 10!: Aimee.

"I felt, that night, on that stage, under that skull,
incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone.
I wondered, for the first time in my life,
if life was worth all the work it took to live.
What exactly made it worth it?
What's so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything,
and not even dreaming? What's so great about feeling and dreaming?"
-Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

"Everything is to protect you.
I exist in case you need to be protected."
-Jonathan Safran Foer, Everything is Illuminated

I don't like being single, no. I live this fantastic life, full of all these magical things, and at the end of the day all I want to do is pick up my phone and share it with someone. The other day I'd sold a million records in the U.S. and I didn't have anyone to tell. It was actually a really lonely moment.
-Katy Perry

I don't know. I guess I just don't believe there are any great mysteries in life. I kind of figure what you see is what you get.
( The Gift )

"I’d rather somebody hate what I do
than be indifferent to it."
-Jonathan Safran Foer

"Tell the truth, or someone will tell it for you."
[Stephanie Klein]

[ Music photo shoot.
Type: R&B. ]

"I’d like people to think of me as someone who cares about them." -Princess Diana

"Many people need desperately to receive this message: ‘I feel and think much as you do, care about many of the things you care about, although most people do not care about them. You are not alone."
-Kurt Vonnegut

"I look at people as ideas. I don’t look at them as people. I’m talking about general observation. Whoever I see, I look at them as an idea — what this person represents. That’s the way I see life." -Bob Dylan

"I see myself as a huge fiery comet, a shooting star. Everyone stops, points up and gasps, “Oh look at that!” Then - whoosh, and I’m gone… and they’ll never see anything like it ever again… and they won’t be able to forget me - ever." -Jim Morrison

"People say that when we grow up, we kick at everything we’ve been told, we rebel against the world our parents worked so hard to bring us into, that part of growing up is kicking at the ties that bind. But I don’t think that’s why we kick at all. I think we kick when we find out that our parents don’t know much more about the world than we do. They don’t have all the answers. We rebel when we find out that they’ve been lying to us all along, that there isn’t any Santa Claus at all." -Taken

"We've begun to raise our daughters more like sons... but few have the courage to raise our sons more like our daughters." -Gloria Steinem

Okay, in all seriousness. You're pretty much the most amazing human I've met in my whole life. & it's so real & every single day I'm with you, I'm really happy every day & it's so real that every time I wake up next to you, I'm just like, 'Ah, you're there, yeah. You're still there." I want to spend the rest of my life with you, so I got this for you.
( The Hills )

His fate was written on a neon sign
A DUI never changed his mind
He got hooked like a fish caught on a line
You never gave yourself a chance to shine
Your destination's a chalk outline
And when you get to the gates you'll be denied

I'll leave you notes in the morning as you get ready for your day.
Kiss your lips before you leave me, make you see my love for you
will never change. And at night I'll tuck you into bed, tell you
stories till you fall asleep. And then I'll hold you under the moonlight
and hope that you will always be this close to me.

How do I feel this good sober?

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 04:51:59 GMT

Get my comments up pleaseee.

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ANTM Cycle 9: Victoria.

01.
"I just have to come face-to-face with the fact that I am not gifted. You know, I can appreciate art and I love music, but… It’s sad really, because I feel like I have a lot to express and I am not gifted."
-Vicky Cristina Barcelona

[ Smoking Side Effects photo shoot.
Side effect: Still born child. ]

02.
Yes, I am! You know it. I see how you look at me - & I know you know. Think about how you treated me & the way you treated Tim. Because he was the real son, & I was different. & as hard as you've tried to stamp it out or ignore it, I've tried harder. I've tried harder than you, to be quiet, & to forget, & to not bother my family with my problem. But I can't try anymore, because it hurts. I'm sorry, Dad. Andie, I'm sorry. I don't want to be going through this. But I am.
( Dawson's Creek )

03.
How do people, like, not curse? How is it possible? There are these gaps in speech where you just have to put a "fuck." I'll tell you who the most admirable people in the world are: newscasters. If that was me, I'd be like, "And the motherfuckers flew the fucking plane right into the Twin Towers." How could you not, if you're a human being? Maybe they're not so admirable. Maybe they're robot zombies.— Nick Hornby (A Long Way Down)

[ Plants photo shoot.
Type: Cactus. ]

04.
Everybody is special. Everybody. Everybody is a hero, a fool, a villain. Everybody. Everybody has their story to tell.- V

05.
The past can't hurt you anymore. Not unless you let it.-V

06.
Some of us have always lived on edge, Daniel. It is possible to survive there is you observe rules: just hang on by fingernails... and never look down.- Walter Kovaks (Rorschach)

07.
People have the right to think and say whatever they want to.
But you have the right not to take it to heart, and not to react.
— Phillip C. McGraw

08.
I'm no heroine, at least, not last time I checked. I'm too easy to roll over, I'm too easy to wreck. I just write about what I should have done. I just sing what I wish I could say.

09.
I was addicted to saying things and having them matter to someone -Waitress

10.
People always say that, when you love someone, nothing in the world matters. But that's not true, is it? You know, and I know, that when you love someone, everything in the world matters a little bit more. - Jodi Picoult, Handle With Care

11.
"... I'm so afraid of losing something I love
that I refuse to love anything."
-Jonathan Safran Foer

12.
"And that's the thing about people who mean everything they say, they think everyone else does too." -The Kite Runner

13.
"I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me." -Elizabeth Gilbert

14.
Better to die fighting for freedom
than be a prisoner all the days of your life.
- Bob Marley

15.
No man can lead man.
We have to have unity.
- Bob Marley

If you're lost and you look then you will find me, time after time.

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 04:06:53 GMT

I'm really trying to fix things with Nate.
Hopefully our talk tonight & everything will be the step we need to get back on track.

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ANTM Cycle 9: Sarah.

Dan: Everybody wants to be happy.
Larry: Depressives don't. They want to be unhappy to confirm they're depressed. If they were happy they couldn't be depressed anymore. They'd have to go out into the world and live. Which can be depressing.
( Closer )

[ Smoking Side Effects photo shoot.
Side Effect: Premature Aging. ]

My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all. The morning rain clouds up my window, and I can't see at all. And even if I could, it'll all be gray. But your picture on my wall, it reminds that it's not so bad. It's not so bad.
- Dido.

"Life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences. Uh-uh. But rather, its a tapestry of events that culminate in an exquisite, sublime plan. If we are to live life in harmony with the universe, we must all possess a powerful faith in what the ancients used to call "fatum", what we currently refer to as destiny."
- Serendipity

[ Plants photo shoot.
Type: Ivy. ]

“If we listened to our intellect we’d never have a love affair. We’d never have a friendship. We’d never go in business because we’d be cynical: “It’s gonna go wrong.” Or “She’s going to hurt me.” Or, “I’ve had a couple of bad love affairs, so therefore …” Well, that’s nonsense. You’re going to miss life. You’ve got to jump off the cliff all the time and build your wings on the way down.”
— Ray Bradbury

“…I have this strange feeling that I’m not myself anymore. It’s hard to put into words, but I guess it’s like I was fast asleep, and someone came, disassembled me, and hurriedly put me back together again. That sort of feeling.”
— Haruki Murakami

[ Recyclable Materials photo shoot.
Material: Garbage Bags. ]

“We help people when big things happen to them, when you see them getting hit by a car, when a brother or a sister or a father or a mother dies, we’re there for them because we can see that death kills more than the person it takes. And yet, the people around us who die a little all the time, moment by moment, who require the least help, the smallest sacrifice, are the ones we ignore completely.”
— I Wrote This For You

There’s something strong about the word “recovering” (recovering addict, recovering from heartbreak, etc). It’s like the line you cross when you realize it’s going to be worth the fight.

“Usually we walk around constantly believing ourselves. “I’m okay” we say. “I’m alright”. But sometimes the truth arrives on you and you can’t get it off. That’s when you realize that sometimes it isn’t even an answer—it’s a question. Even now, I wonder how much of my life is convinced.”
— Markus Zusak (The Book Thief)

“A cynical young person is almost the saddest sight to see because it means that he or she has gone from knowing nothing to believing in nothing.”
— Maya Angelou

We both listened together to the rain pour down and the thunder clap and smelled the earth rising to greet us.
"'You look invincible,' my mother said one night.
I loved these times, when we seemed to feel the same thing. I turned to her, wrapped in my thin gown, and said:
"I am."
-The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold

She likes to keep to herself, but I would also love to keep her.
She may sleep all alone, but she's not the only lonely sleeper.

“He knows my agony, but next to his happiness what can it mean? It’s like having your health on a spring day when your friend has the flu. You can serve her some chicken soup, bring her flowers, but the blue sky, the birds, the light in the trees, that sense of possibility shining behind her heavy curtains, it makes you want to leave the room where she’s aching & you do, & you forget all about her.”-Thank You for the Music

Every lucky man has a bad day
And pretty girl has a scar

"Sometimes you need time to clear your mind. But when you try, you always come back to that one person. The one you know you're meant to be with."

Yeah, to my babies, stay strong. Dad will be home soon. And to the rest of the world, God gave you them shoes, to fit you, so put them on and wear em. Be yourself man. Be proud of who you are. Even if it sounds corny, don't ever let anyone tell you, you aint beautiful.
-“Beautiful” ; Eminem